It's Okay Not To Be Okay.

It's okay to cry over stupid issue but sometimes the issue is sooooo unbearable. So unbearable that all you wanna do for the whole day is to cry in bed and get up the next day with hope that it will be a good day tomorrow.

 It sucks, you know; being a strong person but with a fragile heart. People always misunderstood me being the strongest person at heart when I always cries my eyes out it ran dry somedays. Crying so hard until you can barely breathe anf grasping onto the pillow, that's pain. You will be so exhausted the next day out of crying that way.

 It's harder when you want to cry, when you need to cry but you are surrounded by everyone else. You can feel your heart is falling apart pieces by pieces but there's nothing you can do cus you don't want to be seen so broken. Instead, you sit there with them pretending to laugh along and being cheerful as hard as you can just to show that you are unbroken.

 Gosh.... This feeling is hard to deal with. How I wish I can't feel anything. How I wish I don't offer too much love for someone anymore.

 I need to be strong but maybe not today. Just not today. I'm sorry..

 Broken,
Ophelia

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